Friday, June 24, 2005
11:18 PM
Once again I am prompted to "think" alot more than usual cos i happened to read karan's & colin's blog.
Being the agnostic that I am, I suppose the fear for death would come rather naturally. I'm rather perplexed actually, as to how many who are like me deal with such a thing. The constant knowledge that one day I might just
cease to exist scares me to bits. An odd expression in an otherwise mannered paragraph, but that is how uncertain I feel.
No one would ever want to be forgotten. What does man strive for in this never-ending battle for survival? To procreate? To further his race in its technological advancements? Or maybe, its just the already built-in function of evolution, where natural selection is constantly occuring and slowly segregating the weaker ones from the stronger ones, in order to create a race who will survive this hellish world (my opinion) and continue to further exploit its resources?
I think not.
This world is ever-changing, and I think many of us would gladly exchange much of our lives, our time here on earth, to do something significant and possibly impacting in this world we live in. Our periods of existence are short, and in this short frame of time, do we delude ourselves in the "temporal meaning" (as colin puts it) of life?
Why not do we then do something that would change the world? Make the world a "better" place perhaps? An impossibility with a lone power, yes, but if people unite anything is possible. The weak can stand up to the strong. The wrongs can be righted. How then, do we appeal to the masses? Their upbringing is filled with messages that survival is the key factor in life, and thus their direction would be to earn and continually profit from life itself, chasing after a meaningless materialistic life.
Or is it?
What makes me think that I'm right? A self-proclamation that because I'm (supposedly) more educated than those farmers in thailand, that the power in monetary form that i have over them, makes me have a say in the rights and wrong of the world? But isn't that whats happening now, and concurrently everywhere else, be it school, in society, and even globally.
Even religion (forgive me u christian nuts!) is abated from their genuinity to an extent. What holds true is only due to a momentory passing where a majority of the people (which is a form of power) believe in, whether wholly or half-heartedly. And this alone gives enough strength for religions to twist in many forms, to further draw in people to believe, to trust, and to follow. All in a false pretence, all for a gain in power.]
To be strong. Thats what attainable in this world of ours. But do religions give people the peace of mind to focus on attaining and acheving more in this world, however deluded that may be, or does it actually distract the religeous from spending more of their lives attaining this raw form of power?
Many unanswered questions, and many flawed answers. But most humorously is that, what I have just typed or thought or spent my life doing might actually all be wrong. All empty and void, and all for naught. What I am studying, what I am studying for, my whole "education" is nothing, zero, zilch. What does it all mean?
Absurd. Ridiculous. Blasphemous.
But then again, I'll never know.
What a strange world we live in.
